I miss my best friend
so much
every day

and I wish he missed me too

But I know he doesn’t
So I’ll go the rest of the day
And all day tomorrow
And the rest of the week
And the month
And the year

Pretending I don’t miss him like crazy
Pretending that the dreams don’t mean anything
Pretending I don’t remember his phone number
Or his favorite color
Or what his bedroom looked like
Or the number on his baseball jersey
Or the way he would never let go of hugs first
Or anything else that made him special

There are only a few times throughout your life that you will meet people who will change you completely, inside and out
He was one of those people
And I cared about him more than I’ve ever cared about anyone

I just wish more than anything I could still call him my friend
That I could still call him, at all
That we could talk
And catch up
Just a friendly hello, maybe

But I guess some friendships last and some don’t
I thought ours would last longer
I guess not

The worst part is
No matter how much time has passed
And no matter how clear you make it that you don’t want anything to do with me

I can’t give up on you

How pathetic